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The winds of change ..

I hear the rustle of the leaves in the far off distance and I can smell the burning embers as the last flicker of flames continue to dance on the coals.


In my mind it is Autumn and I am listening to the children down below as they play their little games of laughter. I am sitting on the chair that I've come to know and to love, if one can actually love an inanimate object such as a chair. But it is wood. Chosen by my love and I at a Sunday Antique bazaar. It did not cost much, but the price of the memories it holds is priceless.


In my mind, it is the autumn of my life, as I look backwards from that day to the time I made that fateful move to Frankfurt. With not much money in my pocketbook and only 2 luggages which held a few books, some photographs, clothing for the change of seasons and my digital gadgetry's . It was on this day Wednesday the 9th of May, 2007 that I felt the wind of change blow thru my hair as I stood at the airport entrance waiting to check in.


I looked behind me, if only to see the person that had been with me for 7 years, not knowing whether his face I would ever see again, just like the many other faces in my life that have come and gone yet all remain in my mind like raw digital images on a glossy 24" screen.


It was time. It was time to move forward in my life and meet my destiny.

A destiny that I have been carefully preparing for all these years, and yet not really being aware of the preparation.


It was time, it was time to take a courageous step forward and live out the dreams that lay dormant in my soul. It was time. It was time to finally, really LIVE.

These are the thoughts that are in my mind, prior to my departure from Houston Tx. My life is about to change in a big way .. and once again I entrust my fate to the wind. I lift up my face to the sun as it shines it's warming rays on my face, and once again, I throw caution to the wind .. to see where my destiny will lead me.


I am EUROPE BOUND in ONE WEEK!

 

 

1.5.07 18:16


Creating a Beautiful Life ...

One day I looked in the mirror of my soul and saw that the canvas of my heart had an unfinished painting ....

 I took a step back ...

let out a deep sigh ...

 dipped my paintbrush into 'green' ...

 and started ....

All over again, I paint a path thru 'green pastures' as I walk bravely onward .. creating a beautiful life.

 

 

30.5.07 11:05


I arrived in Frankfurt am Main, Germany on Tuesday May 8, 2007. It's been 23 days since I've been here, 8 days and it'll be a month.

Oneday, if I feel like it, I might write about how I came to leave a life I had in Houston, TX and come to Germany. I've beeen trying to, or attempting to write about it however, I would always get side tracked or ..... or. There is always an 'or' isn't there?

I have still to obtain a Residence Permit. Tomorrow I will go. I will wake up early and hopefully arrive when the office opens up at 7:30am. *Oh gawd!* Once I get a residence permit, (if they issue me one) I will proceed to obtain a 'work permit'. It would be nice to be sponsored by a company, I only applied to 2 legit companies, legit being, "legitimately possible for me to work only speaking English". Yes, I still have to learn German. At  this stage I am wonderring if I will EVER get to speak  German. The language is different from the Spanish I had to learn while in Texas.

I miss home. Once in awhile. Every now and then I will have flashbacks of the things and the people I have left behind and silently I sigh. I do not regret the move. I am very happy to be here. Actually, I am starting my life over. Hmmm.. can one really start a life? I mean, I'm already living .... and a move, even if it is across the Atlantic Ocean doesn't necessarily warrant one to 'start a new life' - perhaps a new ...  a new ... perspective?

Whatever the case, my previous entry was about 're-creating a life' and that is what I intend to do here. Not necessarily make it better, but make it more beautiful - by being more aware of every moment that I exist.

I started this practice years ago ... but had in the recent past, felt I had strayed away for some reason. Probably it was the night shift.

Here in Frankfurt my rhythm is now in accordance with the sun and moon. Meaning, I sleep while the moon shines its' light and I awake with the sun. This is good. This is very, very good. I also walk. I walk everywhere. Everywhere I walk. It costs 2 Euro one way and right now, with limited or next to none funds, 2 Euro is one bag of potatoes!

The nice thing is, I have recently found out that I really, really love potatoes and have been wondering why I have not eaten more of these tasteful and filling spuds in the past?!

There is no television where I am staying. This is also very good. Instead, I listen to music. I either listen to music, cook, walk to buy groceries, or just walk and sight-see. The days are not borinng without television. How can the days be boring when there is so much to see outside. For this I am lucky.

For now, this is all I will say about my days in Frankfurt. I will of course write more ... there is a lot to tell.

31.5.07 20:03


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